I broke my heart.

I fell.

It wasn't the fall the broke it,

But the impact that killed.

It is not the falling in love,

That causes the pain.

But the emanate falling out.

The other side of love that killed,

But not even so because I never did.

I still love.

I am suspending in the unyielding fall.

Not love but separation that killed.

I am not his nor am I mine.

I am alone.

I don't have myself and I don't have him.

It is the loneliness that killed.

And what of loneliness do I truly know.

I caused it.

So if he is there I am here and I am to blame.

Then in the end it is left to say I am killed.

So then would it be suicide or more than that.

I murdered.

For I died myself and I was as much a part of him as he to me,

Then I am dead and he is killed.

Is there more to tell of my self than I am a murderess?

I am dead.

In as much as I have killed the connection of us and with it him.

There remains nothing more than to say than that this poem killed.

Disclaimer: I did not kill anyone and the poems speak figuratively of hearts not lives.

Timeless ages on lovers lips

Of age and romance do tell

For I am lacking in all instruction

And in this I do not fair well

Tell me more of life's farewell

And fantasies as they unfold

For where reality ends, dreams begin

Secrets in store of old

Let me hear more of this babble

For when It is done that is all it shall be

But for now  fill me full of notions

Of lovers on wings of happiness to flee

Paint me a picture with wild brush strokes

Of worlds only dared to be found in thought

Sing me a ballot of beauty and abandon

Of priceless treasures never to be bought

Lay me down in a world far away

So I can feel the wind in my long flowing hair

Let me breath in the scent of love

All I want is for you to take me there

But like all things will

Dreams come to an unbidden arrest

That world fades into the void

Swirling emotions the only proof left to its existence attest

It hangs so fluidly in the air

The scent so potent it consumes

It is the turn of the season a new leaf on life

Deep breath in and exhale the flowers

Wake up each morning to the song of the wind,

Break across the trees

My ocean away from home

Drink in the blue of the sky

The clouds capping the waves of sun

The wind a sultry perfumes

Let it be that which it is

The beauty of life a twist on fall, the death

One day my lips will sting of someone else

Someday I will fly above this throbbing in my heart

Tomorrow I know it will be here still

But recession of the pain will soon start

At some point I will be in another’s arms

But not now, not if I have a say

I won’t be had and I won’t be caught

I am tired of the whirling game we play

In the future he will look at me and declare his love

I will smile and return the sentiment

Today, today I revolt at the thought

My emotions are broken and I am wrent

Sometime somehow I will love again

But there is too much of a good thing

It is rancid to the taste

And cupid’s arrows are jagged sting

So on the marrow I will wait

When I can rightly feel and give

I will wait until I am fully ready

For now I am content to just be and live

Keep safe distance from matters of heart

For in truth they are lies

The heart is nothing more than smoke

Imaginative ties

Don’t let it fool you for any amount of time

Love does not exist

All you feel is pain masked

With death for a kiss

Deceit and no truth will you find

On lips such as those

Words waiting to haunt you

Never was a friend but foe

Hate confused as the enigma of love

Now stepping out

I see what you really feel

And there is not doubt

I hate myself for allowing anything at all

My fault alone

I was blind for a moment

Should have known

Blindsided with pained memories

No different than my past

Hating what I am again

All to good to last

“I will never hurt you”

The number one lie in the book

I feel for it

The line and the hook

Memories haunting my evenings
 
Eyes watching me through the moon
 
I hope my good days aren't over
 
Not so soon
   
I never have seen an angel
 
I gave up watching the sky
 
Whisper softly to me, honey
 
But don't lie, don't you lie
  
I still see you when my eyes are closed
 
Tell me why I can't let go
 
I still smell you inside of my clothes
 
Oh, honey...
  
Someday I’ll go for the glory
 
I'll conquer everyone's fears
 
And for once the ending of the story
 
Won't be tears
  
I have seen too much betrayal
 
I have heard too many lies
 
Someday I’ll be purple lightning
 
In the skies
  
I still see you when my eyes are closed
 
Tell me why I can't let go (I can’t let go)
 
I still smell you inside of my clothes
 
Oh, honey...
  
I can't love anybody but you
 
Oh, honey
  
I was alone, I was broken
 
I needed someone to love
 
Your love was sticky like honey
 
Your love was sticky like honey,/p> 
I said, your love was sticky like honey
 
I got stuck
  
I still see you when my eyes are closed
 
Tell me why I can't let go
 
I still smell you inside of my clothes
 
Oh, honey...
  
I can't love anybody but you
 
I'm afraid but I know it's true
 
I can't find no one sweeter than you
 
Oh, honey
  
See you, feel you
 
Touch you
 
'Can't let go of you, oh
 
Honey...

"Honey" by: Bonnie McKee Memories haunting my evenings Eyes watching me through the moon I hope my good days aren't over Not so soon  I never have seen an angel I gave up watching the sky Whisper softly to me, honey But don't lie, don't you lie  I still see you when my eyes are closed Tell me why I can't let go I still smell you inside of my clothes Oh, honey...  Someday I’ll go for the glory I 'll conquer everyone's fears And for once the ending of the story Won't be tears  I have seen too much betrayal I have heard too many lies Someday I’ll be purple lightning In the skies  I still see you when my eyes are closed Tell me why I can't let go (I can’t let go) I still smell you inside of my clothes Oh, honey... I can't love anybody but you Oh, honey  I was alone, I was broken I needed someone to love Your love was sticky like honey Your love was sticky like honey I said, your love was sticky like honey I got stuck  I still see you when my eyes are closed Tell me why I can't let go I still smell you inside of my clothes Oh, honey...  I can't love anybody but you I'm afraid but I know it's true I can't find no one sweeter than you Oh, honey  See you, feel you Touch you 'Can't let go of you, oh Honey...

Wait Watch Feel
Protect Defend Surrender
Yes No Undecided

It hurts
It lurks
It stirs
It dies

Reason Seek Find
Retreat Shield Fight
Brood Realize Future

It stills
It Builds
It strengths
It beats

Revitalize Breath Live
Mend Restore Life
Happiness Jubilant Success